haha, yes cherry I am usury able to find some nugget of wisdom to revitalize myself and give me more fuel to keep going.
these are far and few between lately. I have been enjoying my life tremendously, no BS there. I have actually felt passion for the things I've been doing (no small emphasis on my roller derby invilvement).
this includes making new friends, going out and having a genuinely good time, trying new things. enjoying me. I feel great about that aspect.
it really gives me a better insight for those WAS's who have felt dead inside for so long and finally get a taste of passion. really in my mind that is the thing we are all striving for. whether it be excitement about activities, hobbies, sex, any of it.
mid life and kids really strangle passion out of our lives and seeing that spark makes me want to NOT give thst up. I don't blame my kids. I blame myself. I never made that effort to maintain a life for myself as we started raising a family. neither did my wife. that was our choice and now I know better.
understanding this dynamic makes me see situations on this board a little differently. I read a situation like Rouky's and congratulate her on being strong. denying things she felt were wrong within her heart even though it felt good. That spark of passion was not within her core values and she moved on. passion is something we all crave. I think we just need to find anew outlet to express that. Many of our WAS's don't deny that spark and end up with this crisis.
uugh. I could go on with this all day, but I'm going to get back to work.
thank you for keeping an eye on me and for your support!
