Still alive, still need guidance.

[Tyler12]

Hi Sandi. I will clear things up a bit. I'm getting the blood test because I did sleep with someone. It was a one time thing and it's for my peace of mind.

Second. She never left OM house. And her mom is a 5 hour flight away. Her justification as weak as it is was that all her stuff is there and she was looking for her own place. Which apparently she found last night and is moving this weekend.

She was not as concerned about the abuse as she was about his intoxication around the boys. And picking them up from day care after having "a few". Which was news to me and angered me more than anything.

She has a lot of issues to sort out. And I'm not planning on being the one to fix it.

Since her A has apparently ended she definitely has been in contact more and more talkative. I avoid reaching out first unless it is something that I need like for example yesterday I needed the boys health care numbers for a eye exam today so I asked her for them as I don't have them.

She called the boys this am and she seemed more interested in talking to me than the boys.

I have a full day planned with the boys so that will be my focus today. And hopefully I can keep my mind off everything else, because as much as I didn't want to admit it when you said I'm toast Sandi. I feel like toast lately. Not like 10 months ago, still not good tho.

With winter coming GaL will start getting back into full swing. So adult sports will start up again and I will be trying to organize another if I can get people to actually come out.

I will see how she acts on Sunday when we meet to exchange the boys. No expectations tho. . At least as little as I can. It's easy to say. Oh ya. I'm good, but not telling the 100% truth about my mental state doesn't do me any favours.

So tho I would like her to run to me and embrace me. Or show some affection in Sunday. I am going to try my hardest to not initiate anything. Try to act as if and let whatever will be, be