Lost -- take a hike, man.

A long hike.

Take the bus to the opposite end of town, and walk back. Walk for hours. Breathe.

It hurts like hell. Let it hurt. Let it go through your body.

Then decide what to do next.

Me: 50, MLC/WW 45
Young kids
Nov 2015: BD1
Apr 2016: BD2
Jan 2017: W filed
Feb 2017: D final