Yesterday was a crappy day at work and almost made me quit my job. My manager really ticked me off and I was close to telling him where to go. Unfortunately a change in jobs is not the best move right now as our economy is in the crapper and jobs are a rarity so for now I will stick with a steady paycheck.
Had a very small interaction with W, she called and left a voicemail on my phone. The message started with her poking fun at my voicemail message, and told me she had found a house and she is really excited about it. She figured I would be on coffee break and wanted to tell me.
I waited a bit and texted back that I don't take coffee when I have the boys so I can leave work early and congrats on the house.
She said oh right haha ok.
That was it. She asked to call S4 later that night and I avoided the phone like the plague. She only saw S4 and heard my voice as I scolded him for taking with popcorn in his mouth.
I felt good that I acted as if and did not try to pursue convo with her, at the same time i feel like it was a missed opportunity to talk to her about something she is excited about. And to be honest I would have liked if she wanted to move home. That is something that may or may not come in time. Her getting her own place is a good thing in my mind tho. It gets her and my boys out of OM house.
So it has been bitter sweet the last few days. Interaction is small, and far between. I have a feeling like I should try and talk to her more, not at a level where I am barraging her with texts. More like a quick question and leave it. If she engages great if not. Maybe another time.
So here is my mind set right now and please comment if it isn't the one to be in. After Sunday's fun day I got too excited about possibility, my mind started giving me scenarios of what ifs. That has mostly faded, I know I am far from a place where we are piecing or even talking about R. And that could be a long way away. I do feel like with OM seemingly out of the picture that this is an opportunity I may should be utilizing. Not to pursue but not to be dark either. Any time I have approached her friendly I get positive reaction however I don't want to be just a friend.
I am wondering what to do with my interactions with her. I am not worried about GaL because I have become happy with my time here. What I am not sure about is if I need to approach her different. I could be wrong as I do still get spinning after what I see as steps forward with W
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
