Newby here, desperate for some advice (thread 5)

[JRuss]

darknes -- honestly, I have no idea where I am in the process. I just know something that seemed very, very important to hold onto, and that I had held onto for years now, may have drifted away from its moorings when my wife of 17 years couldn't even be bothered to mention our wedding anniversary. I don't know what's next, I don't know what my goals are. This is a new feeling, and it isn't present at all times, but if I keep having it, that will guide me in terms of what my goals are, I think.