Yes, I am down, and I'm OK with that. I know that I just need to get through this, and it just takes time. I forgive myself, and I'm going to do what I can to take care of myself and my kids.
How long does one wait around. My answer is zero. I think if you're really trying to become the best person possible, if you are truly detached, you just live your life as honestly and genuinely as you can.
Maybe that's too idealistic. I don't know.
I'm just going to try to be in touch with how I feel, what I want, and what my kids need. I'll know if I meet someone new and it feels right. I'm certainly not going to jump into any relationship -- especially not after all this.
Me: 50, MLC/WW 45 Young kids Nov 2015: BD1 Apr 2016: BD2 Jan 2017: W filed Feb 2017: D final
