Me and Midlife Wife and Midlife II

[AndrewP]

CT1118 - I appreciate your struggle. You are even more of an analytical type than I am by orders of magnitude.

It might not be helpful but I'll offer these words which I hope will at least make you smile.

The human body is put together by amateurs in the dark. It's a surprise that the d@mned thing works at all.

If we knew what we were doing it wouldn't be called research

I think your struggle and your search for answers is noble and while frustrating is probably doing you no end of good. Every scientist must admit though that they all stand on the shoulders of giants. The first researchers into the "electrical fluid" had no idea of what this novelty toy was capable of but just stood in wonder at it. Later people like Tesla could make it dance and do amazing tricks but all based on the work done before. In fact (I believe) even though we've been using it since Roman times modern chemists still haven't figured out exactly how cement works but it's around us everywhere and it patently does work.

I think it's for reasons like this that I'm perhaps going to spend a bit of time staring at the rose on my desk and just wonder at it's beauty knowing that I will never know how or why it is.

Thanks for posting this. I'm sure it felt good to write and it made me feel good to read.