Confused on What to Do 2

[Eagle11]

Hey Eagle, I know things are a bit rough. I sense so much fear coming from you. A fear that you don't have an identity without her.

I've noticed a theme in your posts. The word "easy" You thought staying at home with the kids would be "easy". It would be "easier" just to get a divorce.

Heck, we all want to try to take the easier route. But as someone who has never known "easy" in her life or has taken the "easier" route, I know true growth and the good things in life comes from not choosing the easier option.

Staying home with your kids: not easy it turns out, however, rewarding. My suggestion is trying to find a balance on things that make you happy. Not your W happy, but you, as an individual.

I feel your identity may have been lost somewhere along the line. Find it. It can be found without destroying the other relationships in your life. Don't worry.

Ginger,

Thanks for the words. I agree with you that my identity has been lost. I truly don't know who I am or who I want to be. I have to find a way to figure it out. I am confused on what I should do and how much time it should take. I have always been a patient person, but I think I am growing impatient. This is certainly not easy, it's the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.