the point where you start to think is the alternative really going to be much worse?
This is me. When my W and I do speak I feel complete indifference toward her.
At this point with my M I feel like I could take it or leave it.
I was recently asked by a friend to consider what would be the hardest part if our D were to be finalized. I thought about it for a while and I feel like it wouldn't make a difference. I already live alone and financially support myself and the household. I've already dealt with the fact the M as I knew it is over. What would really change for me?
On the flip side of that I was also asked what would be the hardest part if we were to R and there's a mile long list.
It seems crazy that deep down I do want to take the hard way, if I could live in an ideal fantasy world I would choose R. But then I sometimes ask myself why? Why put myself through that?
IDK, much like you I'm just exhausted by the entire thing to the point that I can't even bring myself to care anymore.
Anyways, you are doing great! I really do admire your strength. I don't know how I would deal with it if my W still lived at home.
W:32 M:26 T:5 yrs M: 3 yr BD: JUN 2016 W Moved out: early JUL 2016 W Filed for D: mid JUL 2016 EA: 06/16? PA: 07/16 Moved in w/ ow: 07/16 D final: 10/16
