Cherry.Papers filed "am I making a mistake".focus!

[Cherry]

Thank you guys! Sara I don't think I'm quite at the stage of you as sometimes some actions do hurt me. But I'm starting to feel that exhaustion of the whole thing, the point where you start to think is the alternative really going to be much worse? I'm already living without him most of the time, he doesn't give me emotional support, support with our child, any help with housework/shopping/ financial in doing all this alone. So for me what will be the alternative? He just won't have free reign to come and go as he pleases, which will only mean that there should be some calmness as to when/if he's going to come in. I'm sure there will be some sadness initially, as it truly will feel like the end of the m. But I just feel now I'm prolonging the pain. He's already filed so there's nothing I can do about that.

Phoebe, thanks for the support, knowing I have you guys here is of great comfort.

Blu, I'm thinking this is the next approach. And I'm not doing it out of any kind of strategy, but out of sheer exhaustion. I can't deal with the same convo over and over again. It's exhausting, it really is. And I can't enable "the easy way" for him. If this is truly what he wants to go and do, then I've got to let him go and do it. But I know for sure, just filing the papers won't give him any insight on the consequences of his actions.. so he has a piece of paper to say he is no longer my h, okay fair enough. But doing that, then allowing him to still live here with all the home comforts, no responsibilities and still seeing his child as an when he pleases is just not how D'D living would be like.

I'm sorry you still find it difficult blu, although you are in a position that most of us would love to be in, I don't think a lot of us realise that piecing is probably the point everything hits us. The adrenaline and every other feeling we feel when dealing with a wayward is gone, and that's when we start to think can we ever be back to where we were? Probably not. I know they say that m can be stronger after an a, I don't know if that's the case. It's like the expression of dropping a vase on the floor, it goes to pieces, sure you can fix it back together, but it will never look the same. After wh came back after his first A, although we worked through it, some days it was in the back of my mind when I looked at him that I no longer looked at him with the same innocence that he was someone who couldn't hurt me. He had done. And now he's done it again, and whilst I still love him, I feel every time he delivers some spew, a little bit of those feelings for him are shattered. And this time, he's hurt me and left him at one of the points in a woman's life when they need a partner the most.