DBR, I just want you to know I've been reading your posts during this latest turn of events, and I'm deeply saddened by it. I haven't posted on your thread, because I have no words of advice for you - where you're at is a LONG way from anything I have experience with. But I wanted you to know I'm praying for you, and I do think you'll be okay when the dust finally settles, whatever the outcome. You seem very level-headed and self-aware, and maybe "okay" will have a different definition for you than you would have foreseen, and maybe it'll take some painful time to get there, but get there you will.. I'm confident of it. I'm pullin' for ya, FWIW...
