Oh cherry, I know it won't serve anyone for me to go off on your WH, but it is so hard not to! It seems like torture what you are going through and I find it so unfair that he continues this affair, threatens D, comes/goes as he pleases, but then has the nerve to just drag this out. Fog or no fog, this is a complete lack of respect for you as the mother of his children. It disgusts me.
Have you thought about taking a different, more firm, approach and just kicking his arse to the curb? As we have seen time and time again, it isn't until LBS is absolutely at the end of her rope and says "enough is enough, if you are not commited to this family, then you must leave," that H can start to even begin to feel the consequences of his choices. Just look at Sara's sitch. I can say the same thing about mine and have read it time and time again here.
Sadly for them it often IS too late. Even well into piecing (and my H has done everything he could and still will), I often wonder if I ever will feel as strongly about him again.
(((Cherry))) You have been the lighthouse for so long. We are all in your corner. You deserve some space and peace from this and so do those babies.
-Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
