Confused on What to Do 2

[Eagle11]

Ok, I'm coming off the ledge now. Maybe she did change her name because she doesn't feel married anymore or maybe she did it for independence. She did the same thing back in 2008/2009 when we went through our troubles and I don't remember being as upset about it as I am today.

Unfortunately, learning about the name change made me snoop again (I know I shouldn't have done this). I discovered she and OM2 have texted each other over 200 times already today. I also snooped onto his facebook because his profile is public and discovered his Grandma died on Sunday and her showing was today with funeral Wednesday. Looking at the text times, I'm figuring he has been texting my W from the funeral home where his dead Grandma is. How sick is that? This is like some bad movie I am in.

Oh yeah, After her plane landed I saw she started texting OM1 right away. He is also in town for the conference. I need to get away from all of this. I wish I could just file for divorce and end this whole thing. That would be the easy thing to do, but I'm sticking this out. I told her I wouldn't abandon her and I am a man of my word. That talk I had with her when I told her I knew about OM1 might have been the dumbest thing I ever did. It did nothing for our situation and if anything it freed her up to do more. I told her i wasn't angry with her and I would stand by her. I should have kept my mouth shut.

So while she spends her days with these OM I watch our kids. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids and I want nothing in life other than to raise them. Its just she knows she can rely on me to take care of them. I'm sure she has no worries as long as I am with them and that free's her up to do whatever it is she wants to do.