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[Coly23]

Hi Cherry, I'm sorry you were feeling a bit bleugh this evening. I always find it a little annoying that DB suggests not to initiate R talks but our WS can initiate to their hearts content! I would just go out tomorrow and say you forgot!

I was speaking with my friends at the weekend saying how much I regret telling my H if he wanted to leave then he should and that it would be so much better if he was home so we could work on our R but you know I'm not so sure now. I think of the time just after Christmas (BD) and when he left in May and remember how miserable we both were. These were the days before I read DR or found this forum but I actually inadvertently did a few 180's but it didn't seem to make much of a difference. I think he had made mind up that he didn't want to be in the M and seeing my desperate puppy eyes every day was making it worse.

Idk, maybe if I had all the necessary tools, which included the knowledge that constantly having R talks is not good, I may not be in this position now. But then again I just remember the turmoil and confused state he was in so I have come to the conclusion that the physical separation for us was probably inevitable and I dont think I could have stopped it. I think my life would have been ten times worse if he was still here... maybe.... Ugghh!