Keep Wearing Wedding Band? [Thread #4]

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I'm not feeling well. I think of this as a long-term response, as in things that were set in motion a long time ago are coming to fruition now. I accept it. It doesn't feel good. I also understand it will get better with time.

As for my behavior, my W may well see me as a nice guy and a doormat, but you know what, I don't care. I'm going to do what I'm going to do. I'm certain that what I do about dinner is not going to change my W's mind. I'm convinced BPD is driving her warpath to D, and it just doesn't matter whether I'm a nice guy or not. Her brain needs a hit, a hit of euphoria from being wanted and pursued by someone new, and I can DB until the cows come home but I'll never be able to give her the drug hit she needs.

The only way she might see things differently is for her to come down from her high. Even then, she might not see me as most normal people would.