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Having a rather sickly and tired evening. Was feeding S as wh got home. He decided to sit and eat with us. He didn't say a lot, but that's OK, I don't really feel like making small talk with him anymore. But I'm polite. When I put S in I bed, he asks me my work schedule for tomorrow, I tell him what I'm doing.. and then asked him why. He said he was thinking we could talk (my mil found the d papers the other day, so I've a feeling it's about that). I said okay, what about. He then snapped, I will tell you when we talk and storms out.

Another burst of anger, these bursts randomly come out. And I know its spew so I leave it and don't rise to it. I'm getting kind of done with his whole constant conversations, it's like every few days. And I get myself back together again and keep on and he delivers me with another one. These are the times that make an in house separation difficult, asvrather than hit you with something and leave you to it, it's kinda persistent, and as detached as you can be, the constant spew gets tiresome. Especially with hormones flying around. He told me he would be moved out, and I honestly don't know where he is up to with this, he doesn't seem to have viewed any more properties. Nor has he put any money into the account where our mortgage and bills come out of. So I've paid it all. But I'm not going to have him d me, and stay here saving for his exit. That's not right or fair.

So tonight I was feeling a little bla to start with, now I'm feeling moreso. I guess I would have been in bits panicking over what he has to say a few weeks ago. Now I'm not necessarily anxious, I just can't be bothered.