Still alive, still need guidance.

[Tyler12]

Ok. So first I have to apologize to you Sandi for being dismissive of your post. It's like I was riding a high and feeling good. Not that I don't still feel good about myself.

I have had sometime to think through it all and tho I still don't see myself as toast, there is definitely a feeling of pursuit and neediness I have. Which I have contained and not let out. As I have worked very hard and had great advice so far so I don't want to waste it all by being available and right where she left me.

So that said I need some 2X4 action from you guys and you Sandi to shake me back to earth. For whatever reason I still want W even though in my head i remeber the pain and hurt I went through while she seemingly had the time of her life.

Also I want to know how to interact with her. Do I continue to detach? Or be somewhat available? I am not interested in being buddies. And only a friend. I don't want to seem cold and distant either tho.

I was a bit upset by your comment Sandi as it made me feel like a failure, like I had wasted all I have done. I very much respect your perspective and advice so it was a slap and I got defensive. Now after some time I see what you mean tho. That Sunday was potentially a step back and if I don't catch it I could spiral back to the beginning.