Newby here, desperate for some advice (thread 5)

[JRuss]

darknes ==

I definitely was right there playing the pursuit/distance game. When I say pulling away, I guess I mean those times when I remember not to pursue. Previously, that took effort, because I wanted to pursue her and do something to close what I felt was a growing distance between us, and I eventually always fell back into that. Just recently, I'm asking myself if I really want to be with this woman which, as I mentioned, feels very different to me. I don't know that she felt anything along those lines might be going on, but she was (for her these days) nice, even affectionate last night and this AM, and we're barely removed from her purposefully ignoring our anniversary all day Sunday. Which is a game -- albeit one being played by someone who doesn't know she's playing it -- pure and simple. I am getting tired of being a party to it.

I'm sure there's some sort of Zen-type reason why I shouldn't care that I can't right now imagine how I'd ever reconcile with my W, but I don't see what that reason would be. It seems pretty important to me.