She was nicer last night and this AM, but I'm still feeling very disconnected, like something shifted, or a light inside me I'd been tending went out, when she let the anniversary go by with no comment. It's a game she doesn't even know she's playing (distance, distance, distance, then creep back slightly when she feels me pull away), and that lack of self-awareness isn't appealing to me. I also feel like there's no plausible way I can blueprint out in my mind how we'd ever reconnect at this point. What could that possibly look like? She'd have to undergo a radical transformation, and I think her problems aren't really of the sort that are amenable to change. I don't think she's capable of a relationship that would work for a non-doormat.
I'm going to start getting smart w/r/t co-parenting and how to be the best one possible. Can anyone recommend any books (if that's allowed on the Forum)?
Me: 46 W: 44 Married: 17 Together 21 D13; S10 BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you) Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)
