Remember, you cannot control your W's response, you can only control your reaction to her. So you slipped up and broke a DBing rule. Frankly it shouldn't be the end of the line for you. Keep doing the process and make yourself strong and confident. When she rages just stay cool and detached, validate but don't agree.

Wait a week and stay away from W as much as possible. Give yourself time and headspace. Go do some serious GALing and revisit your feelings and thoughts after 7 days.

M 10yrs T 13yrs
BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW
BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off
Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce
April '17-Letting go
2018 D busted
DD8, DS6, DS3