Jer, I don't think you are having a MLC at all. I think what is going on is that you are trying to find your way and are still climbing mountains. You are trying to find your inner self and continue moving forward. It could very well be a life's transition and one that I know you will navigate well because you sound so grounded and level headed.
I think it's wonderful that you are going on a solo vacation and the hiking/exploring will be good for you physically and mentally.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
