Hi pinn, I think Plan A, in your case (and mine for sure) is the possibility for a better, happier, more fulfilling future life out there, including a fantasy lover(s) who is perfect in every way.
Plan B is to stay in the same old, same old.
The remorse will come out in bits and pieces, if it is there, buried in discussions. It'll start adding up, so I guess journal them if you hear them to decide if they are real or just manipulation?
me 42 H 32 T 7yr M 6yr BD 5/2016 ILYBNILWY Separated 7/2016