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[Cherry]

Sara, that would be a dream. I think we have plenty in common. I wish we didn't necessarily have so many of the bad things in common, but I find so many similarities in your sitch that I can relate to you. I think you do a great job! Do-big is definitely helping me become a better me, communication skills that can come on use every day.. I'm a very private person, but people always come to me to confide and ask advise, I do like that I must emit some kind of energy that means people can trust in me.

The detaching thing has took me a while this time, maybe it's all the hormones and changes within my body that's making it hard. Facing a pregnancy alone is quite tough, I have a lot of respect to women who do this alone. And also to be carrying the baby of someone you love who is leaving you is tough. But I'm focussing on my little ones. Aside from the sickness and the effects pregnancy seems to have on my body, I do love being pregnancy. It facinates me that two cells just divide and make a person. And I'm quite proudly walking with my head held high and my little bump becoming obvious. I'm way calmer now, I'm aware there's rumours in work. I've had a few gossips come to tell me they've heard things, I kinda don't care, I tell them politely that I don't care for gossip, it's none of their business, and that if they wanna question these things- go speak to wh.. I had this conversation with eh the other week, I told him about these people. He tells me it's just rumours, I quite frankly don't care. But he said tell them to go to him and say it. So I'll do just that.. I know full well they won't!

Again, it's taking the moral high ground. My side of the street is clean. I'm not getting sucked into the dramas- I'm here to do a job, get paid so I can do my best and make myself and my babies proud. I will not hide away. My head is up!

Finding myself now starting to look into baby things which is exciting.. looking at my budget (classing this as my own single income as it will be when he has d) and seeing what I really need. A few people in work have recently had babies so getting excited at doing it all over again. I know it'll be a bit tricky having a toddler and a newborn. But I do love the newborn stage.