Feel those feelings, get them out there and then let them go. Yes, when you are punched in the gut w/something as innocent as your son talking to you about the OM and whether to like him or not, it's difficult. I'm sure you handled it well and your son felt safe talking to you about it. You did the right thing coming here to express how you felt.
I hope that you feel better today.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
