Talk about forks in the road? It seems the advise here is taking the form of a Yin-Yang approach, but in the right order I feel I can travel both paths if necessary to give me the best chance at the most optimum outcome. Yes, until she properly gives me the letter, I will continue to act "as-if" she is still sorting out this stuff in her head. If she does end up giving me the letter, I think I'm ready to be more that happy to bring home those empty boxes ... but she's doing ALL the packing!!

Really, its been pretty quiet in that regard lately. Not much to report other than for those who suggested that I voluteer to straighten up her nitestand for her, it won't be necessary ... as she did that on Sunday. Now there is only her addressbook and the letter on top of it sitting there.

Other than that, on Friday CAW's father was admitted in the hospital. The prognosis is not looking optimistic. His heart continues to weaken and the medication doesn't seem to be having any effect. They also found a mass on his liver. They still conducting more tests, but right now he doesn't want to face surgery and everyone tense over some pretty scary possibilities.

After hearing the news, CAW figured on changing her plans for Saturday. She had an obligation to fill as sponser to her best friend's daughter at her confirmation in the morning. Since it was a large class of 82, she suggested sparing D10 from two hours of boredom, so I agreed to stay home with D10. CAW would come right home and then we would take the cake over that her friend had asked her to make for the party and then head for the hospital and miss the party.

Well Saturday morning she changed her mind, saying since her dad was going thru tests all day, she wouldn't get to see much of him anyway, so she decided to go to party. She didn't share this with me until I overheard the phone convo with D18. Afterwards, I said "Oh?" She looked suprised at my expression. I gently reminded her of the version I had last heard ... to which she just responded, "Do you want to go?" I said, "Sure". So we dropped D10 off for a sleep over Bday party and went to party. I had only met CAW's BF and H only once before socially and the rest were total strangers I've never seen before, but I took it in stride and figured it would be good practice for the day I get to meet all the DBer's that show up for the NY Tri-state gathering!

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... especially since CAW spent most of the day inside helping in the kitchen. I made sure I stayed outside and mingled. Had a really good time too.

Since we were all alone Saturday evening I tried to get a spark going , but the attempt to rekindle a fire snuffed out with a cold shoulder.

Sunday day morning, however I got sick! ... and I only had two beers the day before so it wasn't that! I ended up spending most of the day in bed. It was when I got up to have a bowl of soup for dinner in the kitchen that CAW decided to straighten up her nitestand. That letter stayed on the floor between the nitestand and the shelve all weekend up to that point, so I would have lost that bet!

Sunday nite, I felt better and at bedtime I notice CAW laying on her back without any sheets (we sleep in the nude) ... which is one of her passive signals, but I didn't deliberately didn't make any advances (didn't feel like playing only on her terms) ... but after she fell asleep I did start gettin a bit friskie ... it led to us staying up to three in the mornin.

We all use the analogy of this being a rollercoaster ride, but with CAW's extreme vacillations, lately I feel more like I'm the back of bucking bull ... mechanical bull that is ... on the top notch ... ride em urban cowboy!

'til later,
KAW