Checking in on my favorite couple of people here and like it or nit, you're on that list! I'm almost afraid to read what happened with NG this weekend. First off, am I reading correctly in that you've had struggles the last three weekends? Is that the case or are you simply referring back to the previous "dust up" as you put it? It would seem that ever since the ILY there have been struggles. Correct? Or not? First you were going to have to end things if you said it and he didn't. Then something else happened the weekend after and you thought about ending it again. Then last weekend NG did something else that was a deal breaker and you were ready to end it yet again but he did whatever was needed to smooth things over - at least until the next time.
So here we are at another weekend and I can't help but wonder, will you go four for four? first if I've misunderstood, then that's great and just tell me. If not, and I've followed along correctly, good Lord Maybell what in the heck is going on? Why are you so afraid that you have one foot out the door at all times? Why are you testing him like this? And that's really what it seems like - testing how much he will take, due to this total deep down fear that you are scared you are going to get hurt and can't take that feeling so you want to be the one who ends it if anyone does. Is that it?
You really have said nothing that I can see that puts up red flags about this guy. So why the fear then? Or is there more you are not telling us? Even these spats, you don't provide details. That is must certainly your choice and you have to decide if you share these private things or not. I just wonder if you shared the details it would not show much bad on his part but may reveal you to not be deciding things rationally? Again, just a thought.
I so hope you had a nicer, calmer weekend but want to hear either way. Take some deep breaths. Relax a bit. No rush here. Just take it all day by day and you really will be able to handle what comes. Don't force anything. Just let it happen. If I've learned anything, it's really hard to find someone, so don't screw up a good thing out of fear. You don't have to get him (end it) before he gets you.
I'm really hoping for the best for you. I'm even more hoping you'll just allow the best to happen.
DonH Midwest Me 56 WAW-EXW 55 Met 11/95 / Married 5/00 Bomb 6/20/05 / She Filed on 6/2/06 / Divorced on 10/9/06 4 who'd qualify as GF since D & dated about 25 women since D
first if I've misunderstood, then that's great and just tell me. If not, and I've followed along correctly, good Lord Maybell what in the heck is going on? Why are you so afraid that you have one foot out the door at all times? Why are you testing him like this? And that's really what it seems like - testing how much he will take, due to this total deep down fear that you are scared you are going to get hurt and can't take that feeling so you want to be the one who ends it if anyone does. Is that it?