It's so good to see an update from you! I think of you often and have been wondering how you are. Your trips sound fun. The Grand Canyon is on my list, I hope to take S in a few years when he would hopefully appreciate it. I am glad to hear your business trip went well too.
I can understand being in "monk" mode. I think often about going on a date, nice dinner and conversation, but I can't see past that. I think healing is important and for myself, I don't really see myself having much to offer other than dinner and conversation! What guy only wants that? Unfortunately, my H! Lol. But seriously, it sounds like you are doing what is best for you and that's a good place to be.
Your S started 4th grade this year like mine? It's a little more challenging which is good, my S is transitioning into having more responsibility, which I think is great. They grow up so fast! My little guy has morphed into a tween. I hope your S is doing well
I for one am surprised mediation was cancelled again. But you know what? It's just a piece of paper. Unless you have a reason to make the D legal, let it continue to lay on her. It doesn't need to change how you live day to day. I think the emotional aspect is bigger than the legal. It's taken me a long time to get to that point, but hey, I never asked for this. And like me, you have done everything you could. So, enjoy your life Cali. You so deserve it. You have risen above the mess and see all the positive that has come out of it. That is true success and what I admire about you.
Please stay in touch when you can and take care of yourself.
Big (((hugs))) M
Me 48 H 46 S 11 M 2004 BD 8/13 H moved out 2/15 -live in the present, enjoy the beauty around and within you, explore your new future-