The Fight For Self III

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After months of self reflection, dismantling my issues, determining what was purely my nature and what was taught via nurture. Examining deeply who I was, who I am, and who I wish to become. Asking what thoughts are real, what thoughts can I change, what do I want to keep and what do I want to let go?

The work I have done on my own, the assistance I have received here. The effort to make new connections and rebuild the old ones worth saving. This stuff all added up and I realized that I really want to help people right now. I have things to offer: skills that can be taught, education that can be shared, words which can be supportive. In light of this, I still have much to learn - a professor once told me "I teach so that I may also learn". I really like that. So, it took me a few days, but I am now officially an American Red Cross Volunteer. My time is strict these days, so I am shooting for 1 or 2 hours a week right now, but with the hopes that this experience could lead to a lifetime of learning and assisting.

I think this decision fully fits what my hopes were in using the Fight for Self thread. Yet it also fulfills what I understand to be the point of DB - you can become a better you, a more interesting you, a more compassionate you, a more open you, a more adventurous you. This will attract others to you; as MWD noted in a video, if not your spouse, than you will just be that much better for the next person, I would tack on that much better for all persons. Will let you all know how it goes; if it does not go I how I expect, I am expecting it to be for time reasons, but engaging with an open heart and an open mind.

Still in the fight.