Perhaps at this point, you haven't received the letter because she is considering whether or not to give it to you. I agree with Triple J, she put alot of emotion into the letter. Would she expect you to pick it up and read it? (passive/agressive)? I wouldn't! It needs to be handed to you or put in an envelope with your name on it for you.
When you do get it, you need to let her go out the door. KAW, even my loon of a H is starting to see what he is missing by being out on his own.
If she goes, you will run a gamut of emotions. One of those (eventually) will be relief that the tension isn't right there in your face.
Have patience !
When you can't make a decision because you are torn between your heart and your head, listen to the half with the brain.
