Life has changed, and I choose to grow from it.

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Mach1, again your words are those that I need to be reminded of....
Very in tune you are.

I do know that what I need is inside of me....
Mustering up the courage to face that which I am, see that who I am meant to be, and then...believe, learn, do, fail, learn more, do more, hope, persist, be, and do more....
Embrace the process.....
Focus forward, live in the moment, cherish the past.

Yes, I have long believed that I could not....and I was right.
I am doing that which I must to believe that I can......so I will....

Yes, the Chinese bamboo tree
This is a very good example and one that applies to all the success that I study....
The time it takes is definitely where many give up...I have given up in the past...but now I see time is the gift, persistence without the immediate reward is key.
Faith!
The ingredient I have long been challenged with having...but now it is all I have to keep me going.

45 years to understand this lesson....many habits must fall as I progress in this journey.
Many habits WILL fall.

Mach my friend, Enjoy your vaca time. I hope the you experience much joy and fun.

The other thing has been liked....
A pleasure to read again.

Quick journaling.

I am coming out of the head cold feeling better, just a bit tired.
The week has ended and a busy one it has been.
Plans with a friend fell through, but I guess it all worked out as I was feeling without much energy and D18 was out and about so rest was a welcome opportunity.
My list of to do's seems to grow...my wondering of what it is all for takes more time than I would like, but it is another of the habits I focus on trying to break.

D18 came home for a moment this afternoon and was worried as her mother had called her as she had been in a small crash while driving today. Fortunately she and D6 were fine.
But she was not happy as she just got the car back a couple of days ago from the repairs of the crash that ripped a hole in the door with the fire hydrant 2 weeks ago.

Now the news of this made me feel sad for her....
A different sadness ......One that led me to reach out to her this evening to see how she is doing.
She did not answer when I called.
She called me a couple of hours later and then quickly apologized and said, I did not mean to call you...I thought you left me a message and was trying to get your message.
I told her I had called to see how she was doing and to be sure she was okay.
She replied that she had been having a "sucky" month, to which I replied "I am sorry, I just wanted to be sure you are okay."
She then said I heard you were sick and asked how I was doing.
I replied that I was feeling better.
She said she needed to go in and get D6 from her brother as she had been out at a catering job. I asked if I could speak with d6 tomorrow. She said she would call so she could speak with me and then she wished me good night.

This is the first cordial conversation that I can recall in a very long time.
She called me.....

I feel this tug to try and help her....but I know there is nothing that I can do that would "help" her and more time is needed to pass, before the stage of being friendly would be a calm place.

For now, I have more pressing thoughts to ponder and plan from.
But it was pleasant to have a glimpse of her without the anger and bitterness poking their heads out.

Sleep well and I am praying that each of you finds the strength to do that which is needed for a better tomorrow in spite of the challenges of today.

The seed of the chinese bamboo tree spends five years under the ground with no growth whatsoever but in the fifth year it grows over 80 feet tall, have a little patience in life, your success might just be around the corner.- Dade Keshinro