Cherry.Papers filed "am I making a mistake".focus!

[Cherry]

Is there seriously a mail order script for waywards? A PDF perhaps, or a PowerPoint for those visual types. He came to see me in the early hours. And flat out denied saying any of the other days conversation. You know like I sat and imagined it. Back to I shall be moving, the papers are going through, I know I've made the right decision. There was times I couldn't even validate. I don't think I said anything of any damage. I was particularly cranky this evening through tiredness, aching limbs, headache and vomiting; I really didn't want him to come at me with any of his spew because right now- I just wanted alone quiet time and sleep.

I mainly listened, I did kinda say "but you did say this".. then I gave up, because what is the point. I know it doesn't change anything, I knew he would deny this, so I didn't take things onboard. But if they catch you off guard, it can occasionally get to you when they just deny everything. I guess I'm trying to make logic of a situation where there isn't any.

I think I shall go a little further dim for a few days while I refocus. He stormed out of the room, after standing in silence - talking normally, and he switches because he is "p!ssed off". I'm not sure I can even manage civil right now with him being so toxic. If someone can get angry when nothing is even being said- I'd sooner back off. I did have to bite my tongue from saying "when are you going then". I do think things will be somewhat calmer all round. A little less confusion for me and S. He hasn't seen S at all now for 3/4 days. S hasn't even asked for him. And S seems to have rather perfected ignoring him, for the last week or two, he's took to running in the opposite direction when he sees wh in a room.. and this is the friendliest kid who waves and says hello to anyone he meets. This is hurtful for me, because despite how I feel, I don't want to damage the r between father and S. But I guess toddlers can't process or speak through their emotions, they just go to whoever they feel safe and loved with. I just got to protect him the best I can.