One of my favorite people in the world is hurting. And I can't do anything about it. Because I'm stuck on the other side of the world behind a screen and an intermittent Comcast signal. And she isn't asking for anything anyway because sometimes nothing can help. But I can't sit quietly and pretend I didn't hear her crying. So I will sit like an idiot staring at the screen for a while. Then run a few google searches on what to say before realizing that's quite possibly the stupidest idea I've ever had. And finally deciding that whatever I posted would be absurdly inadequate. So clearly there was nothing left but the counter ode. To shame myself with my embarrassing writing and clumsy expressions, and so join her company in spirit. I know that it's not the same, that my shame will leave and hers won't go so easily. But at least she knows that no matter what is lost there are people that care about her no matter how bottomless her needs are.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
