Sorry folks ... didn't mean to leave you all in a lurch like that. Had I known I'd be tied up for the better part of three weeks, I wouldn't had started this thread when I did ... now to address all those wonderful responses (which may a few posts to get them all in) ...
Shiny: Your assessment is pretty much what I have come to believe. One thing about her journalling is she only does it when she feels her worst. Her journal of late has been buried under an ever growing pile of clutter on her nightstand, so I believe her last entry was back in Nov just prior to her upswing again. The fact that is was just sitting there collecting dust, I read as this time it might be for real and why I was surprised to find by other sources about her thinking again about leaving. From what I have put together, I think D10 must had overheard the phone convo CAW was having with her D24 about D24 moving back to the area next year and CAW moving in with her on the day D10 made her diary entry.
Quote: So....what IS going on that's different in this UP cycle, KAW...do NOT underestimate the change in your work schedule and the things you're doing around the house. These are HUGE to a lot of women (including myself).
Yes, I think it all plays a part and that I'm even havin' some fun playing Mr. Mom. CAW even is showing signs of coming out her depression despite she hasn't been feeling physically all that well of late ... but on the other hand ... these letters keep coming from D24, which keep repeating the same theme. This month's letter stated, "Soon we will be together again <SNIP> and then you won't have to be tied to just one man." WTF!!!????
I can't help be keep wonder the reason she is more upbeat is not because of me or anything I'm doing, but because she is looking towards this day D24 keeps writing about. She has mentioned before how for years she put on a facade that she was happy with her life when she wasn't. Is she doing this again just to keep the peace knowing she only will have to do it for a little while longer?
I've been wrestling with this for these last three weeks and I don't know why it is so difficult this time around to push these thoughts out of my mind. I've been thru this before and had a better handle on it before. I know it really doesn't matter ... that even if it were true ... it doesn't change what I'm to be doing over the next year ... to be true to who I want to be ... so why is it bothering me so? Actually, I've been a experiencing a swelling of anger and while CAW does not seem to have noticed, I feel that it is affecting my actions some, eventho I'm trying not to let it.
... and yes Easter was a good one and like every year included homemade cheese ravioli made by CAW's grandmother. Yummmm!
Her journal of late has been buried under an ever growing pile of clutter on her nightstand, so I believe her last entry was back in Nov just prior to her upswing again. The fact that is was just sitting there collecting dust, I read as this time it might be for real and why I was surprised to find by other sources about her thinking again about leaving. From what I have put together, I think D10 must had overheard the phone convo CAW was having with her D24 about D24 moving back to the area next year and CAW moving in with her on the day D10 made her diary entry. 
