I had such a busy draining day. My D9 decided to make her first call crying to come pick her up from the nurses office in her first full week....She said her neck hurt and I had to tell her no, I can't get her. Coincidentally it was the first night since last school year she had to wait at after care until 6:30 for her dad to pick her up. And she hasn't stayed at his house in 10 days. He was all pissy because she is moody and forgot her homework. She's mad at me for not picking her up...... anyways....
Through my nutty and busy day, I've been reading and re-reading the posts and I don't know if you guys have any idea how much they help.
Originally Posted By: ericmsant2
Ginger
I just bounced over here and read your last post. Here are my Top 10....
1) As Rick said there is nothing WRONG with YOU. 2) Do I need to drive down there and remind you how amazing you are (big brother style, which involves booze 3) YOU are so amazing and not settling for the crumbs that some dude tend to shell out - that my dear is a good thing! 4) F*ck exNG. He does not deserve YOU. Period. 5) See # 3 again. 6) I am sorry about exNG...I truly am. 7) See # 4 again - he is NOT worth it and I believe he knows it. 8) Love you like a sister and I hope you know it. 9) You are amazing mom - stop doubting yourself 10) I know I said i would never again.....BUT.....I think I found Mr. Horse...and I mean HORSE. LOL.
Hugs....see you soon.
Eric, I love you, bro. Seriously. I'm one lucky girl to have such good close friends in my life. I never forget to count the blessings even when I'm overwhelmed and I feel like my life blows.
I was thinking about it and talking to my therapist tonight and if someone could have told me the outcome of my R with him, I still would have went through with it. I've had no regrets, honestly. I grew personally from it, I got to love again, and maybe I was even loved back, and I got that special bond with his D. I made such an awesome new group of friends, and I really did love the time I spent with him.I've been feeling down, because I miss it. I would not undo this in anyway, so never feel sorry. I meant to tell you that today, but I was on a house high, lol.
We discussed some other things regarding him I will keep off here:) But really, no regrets. I would even do it over again.
I take the gifts from all my experiences, and there was actually many to be had.
I also forgot about this horse you have in the stable? I did promise D9 I'd only date guys in NJ, but I am open to meet this horse......
