My Wife Walked Out 6

[RSG]

Well, it's been a pretty crummy day. I called her a slut about 100 times today for rolling around in the dumpster. It felt really good honestly. I asked my Dad for the recommendation he got from his secretary for a divorce attorney. I need to schedule an appointment, and will contact him tonight. I'm not sure when I can take time off, because I've done so much lately. You know, since I'm the only parent I've been doing all the appointments and I have the other one Monday.

I didn't know he was M. He has a 9 year old child he barely sees, who wants little to do with him. Apparently she has kidney problems And, a picture truly DOES say a million words. I saw a good up close picture on his W Facebook page. Fat, ugly, dopey looking, looks old but is early 30's, and no money. Neither one of them have money to file for divorce lol.

Coconut, I'd like to go to their apartment and whoop his fat ass. He's a big fat doofus covered in tattoos. Now I know where the sudden itch for new ones came from, and the stupid hair colors.

But, it's the lies more than anything. The more I talk to his W, the more the lies come out. Everything in 2016 has been a lie. He has been open to his W about it, while she has hidden everything from me. Now it's been exposed and she is SCARED about her reputation getting out.

I really know, now more than ever, that I can live without her and don't need her. I've lost all my respect for her, she's pretty much at rock bottom for me. I looked at her today at dropoff and just felt disgust. Could I EVER kiss her again?! Putting my mouth where raw sewage was???

Today was 9+ months of anger, fear, frustration, tears, lost hopes, dashed dreams and hell rolled into one and I let her have it. But, CBT, I'm on silence starting tomorrow.

Oh, and she's not going to therapy anymore....and it was worthless anyway. "I learned in therapy I don't have to explain my feelings." Lol, she saw a hedonist of course. Just an echo chamber for being an adulterer. Probably my favorite thing I said was "Do you really sweat when you go to church?" I laughed at my own joke at my desk lol...