It hurts, and it hurts a lot. And I'm tormented in moments and on certain days. But the overall path I'm taking, I am at peace with that. I know I'm not able to make perfect choices but I know I'm doing all that I can, and no matter what happens I will be (mostly) at peace with myself and in front of the kids because I know I've tried to do what's right.
It would almost be easier if my W had outwardly bad behaviors. Then I could say, OK this is enough, kids are better off not to see this. (But then I'd be so sorry for the kids for having to see that stuff!)
Has your XW come back to her senses? Did/does she have any psychological issues? Substance abuse?
Me: 50, MLC/WW 45 Young kids Nov 2015: BD1 Apr 2016: BD2 Jan 2017: W filed Feb 2017: D final
