I think part of the hardest thing I going through -- is I "thought" I was a good wife. I worked hard at my job, then came home and worked some more (I did everything at home since my husband had a long commute), devoted myself to my daughter and my husband. I did these things -- to keep him happy and to stay out of this situation I'm in right now. I was taught to be a 'good' person.
Was I happy always doing the things they wanted? No, but I felt I had the responsibility to my family to do it. All the while -- I lost myself and what my husband actually loved about me. That was something else he told me in another email.
I have been reading the LBS Stages thread and sadly it hurts. The way I handled my marriage hurts. I devoted so much time to what I thought I should be doing -- I actually just failed myself. Yes, I am beginning to see that HIS MLC, will be a learning time for me as well.
Luckily -- I have this time now to try to find me. What is scary is after 17 years, I do not remember what I like ...
Me: 42 Him: 45 Daughter: 13 ____________________________________ Married 16 Years, Together 17 Years BD: 8/15/16 Moved out: 8/26/16
