I worry that I will never be happy again or that I will never trust again -- I guess I need to stop worrying about these things and GAL.
Not completely familiar with your sitch but I am all to familiar with teh script MLCrs and the LBS versions.
This stuck out at me today while I am deciding what to do for lunch, I had these two very same thoughts for some time. I am about 3 years ... yes 3 years post BD and honestly I thought the trust thing would be the biggest hurdle, thing is If you do the work you realize you control the trust issue, and it really is that simple - you chose to trust or don't.
As far as the Happy thing ... same song and for me was the first verse. I found peace first ... happiness followed. Did I chose this ... no, it hurt me but did not break me, in fact I am much much stronger because of it all and for that I am grateful.
Happiness and Trust will come, but that's on you ... as are so many things we all must go through to get to the other side of this.
