Trying to detach - part deux

[Coly23]

Hey Ladies, yes all these firsts are going be tough but each time I get through one I feel a teeny weeny bit stronger.

I'm not too bad thanks Altair. Just having one of those days when I mind read H and think I know exactly how he is feeling. Today I can't imagine he has any feelings for me whatsoever and that is why it is so easy for him to detach from me. If makes me feel physically sick sometimes :0(

Well the the stuff I don't like about him is the way he is behaving now and that's why it's so hard to think that this person will ever love me again. Although I can imagine he is all sweetness and light to his friends so they don't see any difference!

Cherry, yes I am doing lots of faking it at the moment but it is making me very tired to put on a happy front to him. I actually feel a lot happier when I don't have any contact with him at all but when I do it takes me back a few steps.

Whilst I was driving to a meeting today I was thinking about all the things I would say to H if I got the chance, very un-DB! I then took a deep breath and thought, there i told him in my head so I can leave it now. It made me feel a little better!

Good that you still had your Bloody Mary Hawker!