The Woman is Pure Evil

[RDS]

Well, today is my 32 year anniversary. I guess most people would assume if you’ve been married this long then it’s pretty much forever. Obviously it’s not forever. I don’t know what the day has in store for me as it’s just getting started. I’m not very sad, yet, but as the day goes by who knows how my emotions will run.

The last few anniversaries were a bit stiff anyway as we “celebrated” the date only because that is what you’re supposed to do, right? We went through the motions. Hell, the last two anniversaries we didn’t even make love. How screwed (no pun) up is that?

My mind does want to go back on our wedding day. My W was so happy. She kept telling me how much she loved me and how I made her the happiest woman in the world. I was happy too, but I was also nervous because I knew I had just made a huge decision in my life and from then on it wasn’t going to be only about me. It was going to be about us. I’m not yet there where it’s only about me. I’m working on it. I think most here can relate when I say I want it to be about us again.

My W and I have talked each night this week and each talk has been at least 100 minutes long. Yesterday she called me to check on me because my D and I had an argument about how I’m selling the house. I had stopped by my W’s office yesterday morning to have her sign some stuff pertaining to the house sale. My W could still tell I was still annoyed with me D from the argument I had the night before. She looked at me and said, “RDS, you’re looking like the old RDS. I want the new RDS back.” I stared back at her and gave her a big hug and thanked her for pointing it out to me. She called me later that night expressing her concern that she overstepped her bounds. I assured her she didn’t I was very appreciative of letting me know when I was going back to the “old” RDS. I wasn’t mad at my D anymore. I was a little disappointed my D was so opinionated and wouldn’t get me the support on mine and my W’s decision on selling the house.

This is the first time I’ve sent her a spousal support check. Usually she withdraws the money out of the account (after I give approval). I was hoping the check would arrive yesterday so we could discuss it. It didn’t and I don’t know if she will contact me with questions. I’m hoping she doesn’t until tomorrow. We will see.

Oh, and my water heater is dead. Nothing like taking a cold shower on your sad wedding anniversary to get you started for the day. I’m hoping it’s nothing more than the heating elements. One of the elements is corroded and some water is leaking from it. I do not want to change out the whole water heater. At least it will give me something to do tonight.