Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Hey,

I have the kids again now. And my time with out them I found I was not grounded, I was floating, I was connecting to a couple of friends and my sister and brother but they would not reply right away also they are in other cities. I feel kind of lost. Like I am swimming but getting nowhere.

I guess I am still not comfortable on my own yet. That I was too co dependent on someone else for a lot of things.

So having the kids I am better and focused. S7 was again telling me about OM and how they are going to visit him and his kid. He said he lives like 20 min away and that his mom visits him when ever she does not have kids at her house.

I think he must over hear this stuff and for some reason he is telling me word for word what he hears. He told me once that he likes when grown-ups talk because he listens but they don't think he can hear them.

I have already confronted WW about this and about not exposing the boys to him unless they are in a serious relationship. So I don't think I need to mention anything again right now.

I was thinking of talking to S7 and ask him why is he telling me this stuff about his moms guy friend. I was also thinking of telling him there is nothing I can do about who she visits or is friends with. That its his moms choice not to be with me right now also. That I would much prefer to be together as a family it is just not an option right now.

I don't know if that is too much info for him or what but I think he is telling me this stuff so that I do something about it. And I don't want him to look at me and think I just did not fight for the MR or his mom.

Also WW is forcing the agreement that we made that I would pay for morning day care. But it is bothering me that I did not fight that as I agreed because she was going to otherwise fight for full custody. It was early and some how it made it into the agreement. My lawyer never said anything about it and I did not ask. I feel like I was bullied into that and now I have another expense that only I have to pay for that is kid related.

So some advise when making your separation agreements fight for what you believe is right for you and run it past your lawyer and listen to your lawyer.