Thanks Mowgli, The initial shock of her coming to visit was frightening to me. After having it go through my head for a few days I realized I will do as I please. I will be me, I'm not going to walk on egg shells or act differently. Why should I.
Although sometimes I feel lonely I have been pretty happy with my life since I made the changes I wanted to make and look forward to making more as need be.
So whatever comes comes. Her reactions aren't my concern anymore, me and my boys are. This isn't an opportunity for me to show off. It's just another day and if she sees what she left behind she can deal with however that feels.
I don't want to be a friend or weekend fling. And this is probably what she said it is. A visit with the boys. It my mind reading that searches for it to be more.
Thanks everyone for listening to my rants haha. It is a small dynamic shift. I saw it and ran for it. Not to her. Just in my head.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
