KGirl - new life, new stuff #2

[KGirl]

Welp, that didn't last long. New guy started to get "busy", wasn't making much of an effort to meet up with me, etc. This time I trusted my gut and asked "so I feel like I've been pushing a lot lately to get together and it's been hard to pin you down, I'm not sure what that means?" I then got the "yeah I do want to see you because there are some things on my mind I need to say" and I was like "nope I'm not waiting three days to hear what I think you have to say, tell me now." And as I sort of expected, I got the "I think you're great and attractive and funny but I keep asking myself if I could see a relationship with you and I can't now so I think maybe that means I won't... and to be honest I do want to meet and date other people.. it's too bad we didn't meet at a better time.. etc." I feel like I was the rebound... I guess I'm not surprised considering he met me a month after a three year relationship ended and I was the first person he dated. Would it really have been different if I was the fifth or tenth person he met? Dunno, but maybe telling myself that is easier, because I really liked him, so much more than anyone I had met since XBF, and I thought it could be a thing.

Oh well. I let him know if things change and he realizes how d*mn awesome I am, he knows where to find me, but I can't sit and wait while he decides what he wants and dates other people. Lesson learned - if someone gets weird after the exclusive talk, DON'T proceed with things I'm not willing to do if you're not exclusive (I just told myself "well it'll be ok, in practice he's not dating anyone else, he's just reluctant to say it" - nope, clearly it was on his mind even if he wasn't acting on it). I just got done writing my 3 page angry letter that won't get sent, so feeling slightly better.