Feyth, that's awful. It is a double whammy, for sure.
It really does help to vent on here, though. And hear from others who understand the crazy, awful, mixed up feelings involved. In trying not to think about H and let go, I'm creating my own little safe H free world. But our lives were so intertwined and or "big city" so small, it really isn't. Its almost like I see a unicorn run into my living room when my "old" life peeks in through social media or those random run-ins at the market. It throws me off my game.
I still end up thinking of him. I still wonder what happened. I own my behavior, but wonder why he held his feelings in "so as not to hurt my feelings" and why he didn't insist on some sort of counseling; for him, for me, or for both, before giving up.
I just guess I'll keep trying and moving on day by day. Its getting better, easier. It will get better still. It has to, right?
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
