Taking my first sip of the water

[roist]

The believe nothing is not so black and white. But basically even if WASbelieves/thinks a certain thing NOW, that does not make it true forever. You have to respect that is how she feels now. So NO No No you don't treat her like your W. You treat her with respect and even love but not as a H.

She is not playing a game for you to become who she wants you to be. She does not want you NOW. But improve yourself and maybe just maybe she will become attracted to the improved you. But those changes have to be true and to do that they need to be for YOU.

I understand how lost you feel, how unsure you are about your way forward. I have felt this way. But knowing it is NEVER going to be attractive to W and NEVER going to help you, your only choice is to make baby steps towards changing this.

Best wishes