Things are improving. She let me video chat with the kids 3 days in a row so far. She said that she will allow the kids to Skype with me whenever they want and she told the kids that "she wants to do things with me" and that "she doesn't want another man". I keep sending her positive energy every night when I meditate and I turned on ACCEPTANCE, I will accept whatever she decides to do and live with that and GRATITUDE, I am thankful to her for causing me pain that way allowing me to improve myself and become a better person.