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Thank you Job for the welcome and for your reply. I have glanced through Foreveryoungs threads a few times in the past. I love his (almost) unwavering" she is worth it". I never went in depth into his threads because honestly they daunted me. It was earlier in my situation and the thoughts of how long I may have to stand, were unthinkable or I believed beyond my capacity. I will take the time to read his story fully.

My GAL has been part getting a life and part getting busy.The getting a life involves mostly doing sport a few times a week, at least once with others.I have increased my social circle but most are not deep friendships and I have actively improved my friendship with a group of guys from my area.

Getting busy is stuff I do around the house. Includes DIY projects, some sport, balanced contribution to housekeeping and time with sons. I also am self employed and there is no shortage of paperwork etc for that.

If needed I think I could fill most evenings and weekends with non W stuff. But for now I try to balance how much I am available with when I am busy. I divorced our couch life as before every evening was in front of TV hardly communicating. Now I am only there if watching something I want to watch, if WE are discussing something or if too tired for anything else. I will talk another time more about this "balance".

I am taking care of myself, with regards to my health/fitness, meeting my needs, self improvement and the occasional treat. I don't sleep as well as I would like to, but my head is not overactive at night.

I have had a low opinion of myself but now that has greatly improved. I am not perfect and there are somethings I seem v slow to improve/change. I truly appreciate the opportunity this has given me to really look inside and work on myself/my life. I am not as impatient as I was but I want this situation to end. I know I can live with either outcome and regardless there are many things I will always bring forward, including self worth, continuous improvement, seize opportunities, empathy and appreciation/gratitude.

I tended to use my previous threads to either mention self improvement stuff or more so to release negative phases. Rereading my threads I do notice I have talked often about when I was not doing well. These were true but I probably didn't write much about the times I felt well.

Best wishes