Me and my 2 daughters

[Irish M]

what I read/pick-up in your post(s) is the love, care & consideration you express openly for your Ds and believe this will always see you, and them, through.

Hi HTM , loving them and making sure they come out of this with the proper tools to deal with lifes ups and downs is my main goal. Yes it gives me so much in return from them because i see them happy and safe. I am one of the lucky ones. I still wish it was different for them but they have told me , " we are better off"

As you travel the path, you'll notice more and more of the people who are in crisis.

Hi Job
funny you say that. I see it everyday. At first i thought it was just my mind making excuses for peoples bad behavior. But when i see someone i know very well act in a way that is not rational and is hyper narcissistic. I dig deeper and see that they all suffered some sort of trauma in their youth. They were all spoiled brats ,no love just spoiled with money and toys and never heard the word no. Single mom or dad as parents and their parents jumped from OP to OP. I guess our society has created a real mess.

Gwen ,thank you. :-) It is no easy task, especially girls. Bra shopping and feminine hygiene products were kinda awkward for me in the beginning. But now its easy as 123. I buy the feminine hygiene products with no issues. And the bras, I just stay outside in the jeep and send them in with my credit card.. I think they are happier that was as well. lol

I totally get it about the healing and not being ready for any R. I’m kind of slow in the process, and I’ve been there longer that you are. Even though I don’t have that kind of extreme of MLS to deal with (no knows OW 4 years into it, WOW!), I’m not quite ready for an new R.

Hi Bright :-)
a new R will present itself in time. I am not one to force it. In the past i went from girlfriend to girlfriend. I guess i was one that couldn't be alone. Currently i share my bed with no one. Ok my dog when there is a thunder storm lol. I am at a great place. Finding my inner peace. I can say that i have never felt better about myself.

Hi Jack
thanks for coming around. I've read your posts on several other LBS pages and its nice to have you here. You have a big heart.
Since you asked about Vegas.

My first time there. A lot hotter than back home. I had a day of work and 2 days of play. I'm not a gambler but i did set aside 50$. It lasted me 30 mins .lol was up 75$ but somehow bet the bank and lost it all with one push of the button.

If there was a city that attracted addictions and mental illness, Vegas was it. From the Elvis imitator picking a fight with a street performer over a cigarette to the guy sitting at the machine next to me crying because he was afraid to go back to his room out of fear from his wife. You see he spent all their vacation cash on the slot machines. Maybe an act thinking i'd give him some money. He'd probably put it back in the machine anyway. I am no enabler.

Lots of drunk people at 3am. I am Irish so I can hold my own. lol
One guy, nicely dressed, drunk as a skunk. Couldn't for the life of him remember where his hotel was. I asked him what was outside his hotel. Water fall, pirate ship, restaurant, statues... his answer was " all i remember is slot machines". I guess he will eventually find it when he walks the strip until 9am and sobers up.

I did hook up with some suppliers who are Vegas experts. Showed me the hot spots and where the great food was.

All in all. I slept 3 hours per night and had a blast.

I was so happy to be back on the plane to see my girls. They were safe and sound at my parents so I didn't worry once.

if i go back one day. it will be the dessert, grand canyon and area 51. I'll leave the strip to the addicts.

Life is good

Irish