Papers are filed, here comes the D. Focus on me

[Cherry]

It's strange isn't it. I guess this is the true definition of detaching. He sees that I'm not actually phased by his behaviours anymore. Like his stops outs he does. I leave it, I pay it no mind. And in that sense detaching has helped, I no longer spend time thinking where's he at. Who's he with. The way I'm seeing it is he's already gone, and soon he will physically be gone.

I guess they wanna temp check. The more we pull away, they then have to kind of deal with the rejection that they've lost us. All night long he has been messaging. I when I feel it needs no further response, I leave it. And then he sends something else. It's strange, but I think he is temp checking. He wants to see that he has me where he wants me. But I'm busy you know, painting my nails.. watching mindless tv....