Albac - 7 months in. Life goes on.

[albac]

Thanks Mules,

I am working on me for me. I can say honestly that over the past 8 months as much as I said I was working on myself for me that I was not doing 100% for me. I was hoping to spark some change in her.

I can now truly say I have thrown the rope away. I don't care what she does now. I am not available to her at all. I am working towards a bright future where I am happy and my daughter is happy and has everything she needs.

As for OM I made it very clear to her that I NEVER want to meet him. And that we will never all be friends because that's not how life work. I said I know that we can't change our feelings and I want her to be happy.

Just before I left I said that I will be dropping contact for myself as seeing her is not good for me. She said she understood. The messages me about random crap the same night.

I think she is a very lost soul. She says she wants OM and not me yet she tries to keep me as a best friend. She needs to get use to the fact that I want no part of being her friend. But that's not my problem.

I know there are mixed opinions hereabout seeing other people. I am at a point now where my GAL and moving on with my life I need to start socializing with other people more including women.

I'm not saying I'm looking for a relationship because I have no interest in that now but anything I can do that helps me fill time and feel better I think is a good thing.

I'm proceeding with life as if my W is gone forever and I need to be ok with that otherwise I am just living in a prison. I have been in the prison of hope for 8 months and I can't live there anymore.